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Classical @ 06:30 pm CST

I AM GOING TO EAT YOU AP HUMAN GEOGRAPHY EXAM. EAT AND DESTROY YOU.

...umm. yeah. my brain is a bit fucked up. :D
i have been studying all freaking weekend for this thing... breaking only to go garage sale shopping with friends yesterday and playing katamari damacy at times to keep my sanity.

but i am so ready now. i'm a bit worried about the free-responses (three in sixty minutes, man!) because my carpal tunnel will definitely kick in... but i guess if i just trek through it and get that shit done, i will be in good shape. i've taken a couple of multiple-choice practice exams and did really well on them, i think.

so yeah. you are so pwned, exam. >F

and then tomorrow night, i will be on a mad-crazy physics study kick. D: fucking teacher and his random-ass tests...

it got a little colder.

Classical @ 03:52 pm CST

AAAAAHHhhhh... i think hell just froze over.
i just broke my donut fast. randomly.

i haven't been able to even get near those pastries since i quit my bakery job last august. i mean, just the smell of them used to make me sick to my stomach.
but i guess today had just the right circumstances, because when i saw them lying on the table, i picked half of one up. and ate it.

i was sure i'd be off these things forever, man... but, uff, it didn't taste so great, anyway. and the aftertaste tastes like umm... dirt. D: so i think my fast is back on.

but oh man. that was weird. D;

and umm...
that's it.

yeah?

Classical @ 07:18 pm CST

well, i've had an umm... interesting day.

so blood drive comes along to the school. as i've already previously mentioned, i don't have issues with needles or anything. i figured i would do a good thing and donate because i'm all healthy and stuff like that. i get there this morning, feeling great and everything.
getting me hooked up was obnoxious, because my veins are kinda small and were at weird angles in my arm. in any matter, from the position i was put in, i couldn't see anything. nothing was really visible to freak me out or anything, so i did just fine through most of the thing. i was quite bored, actually. XD i couldn't do anything except roll this stick around in my hand.

but at the very end... i started feeling insanely ill. like the pukey kind of ill. i waited until i had finished and then all hell broke loose.
in short, i was physically sick for an hour and a half straight after that. they said that it was somewhat common (like one out of every ten) who feel lightheaded, get sick, etc. after giving blood for maybe ten or fifteen minutes. but after twenty minutes, they started to worry, and after an hour, they had to start calling people. especially because i was getting worse and practically going into shock. .x. but my pulse and blood pressure remained mostly normal, so i wasn't "offically" going into shock... but it was pretty damn close. they called it a "vagus reaction."
apparently, my sympathetic nervous system went into overdrive and the big nerve (vagus) that goes through the heart and throughout most of the body was really affected. it's connected to the heart, the stomach (while was why i was so ill), and the veins in the legs, so all of those were dialated and taking all the blood that my head really needed at that point.

and yeah. an ambulance came! x:
i got to ride on one of those strappy beds and into the ambulance and wear one of those nasal straw things that gave me some extra oxygen. because my body temperature was low and i was shaking so much, they had to poke the back of my hands four times in attempt to get an IV in me, but that didn't work. D: but they did end up poking me with something to keep me from further pukage, so now my upper arm aches like hell. that one hurt.

got to lie around in the hospital for a bit and listen to the three other patients in the same area around me. there was a swedish family who was supposed to get on a 'plane back home today, but everyone in their family was sick. then wthere was a guy who worked in construction or something who dislocated his knee. and then there was this crazy, neurotic girl (who was probably no older than nineteen) who was freaking out about chest pains, but refused to take half of the tests the doctors wanted to do.

and yeah. went i finally warmed up, the nurse lady was able to get an IV in me and then i froze again, because that thing was going fast and the water was way cooooollld. but it was better than being dehydrated like i was, y'know.

so now i'm home and feeling rather okay. my throat burns just from how much bile was pushed up through there, my arm still hurts, my stomach muscles are sore, and i get really lightheaded whenever i stand up.
and i'm stuck eating crackers and drinking water while everyone else in my family gets really good Chinese for dinner. D: my mother brought me something home, though, so i hope i'll get to maybe eat it tonight... if not, for lunch tomorrow.

so, in all, i totally did not see this coming. XD and i now have a reason to be kinda nervous with getting my blood drawn now... though the doctor says this isn't like, chronic or anything, and i could probably give blood again and be just fine.
but umm... i don't think i'm going to be doing that again any time soon. XD;;

umm... stuff.

Classical @ 08:44 pm CST

waah.
so i'm going to microcon. just for a bit. and i had better see kathy and/or rana there or i'll be sad. :<

but umm... in other news, not much is happening. not like much ever happens, anyway.
i did the most amazing three-hour roundabout trip today around the southwest suburbs to pick up...seven applications, making it a grand total of eight places i am applying for the summer. i really do hope i can get a job at blick's... even if the drive will be annoying and i will have to pay for gas (which will probably be at like, five bucks a gallon by then at this rate, ugh).

stupid math mca test tomorrow. oh well. not like it will be difficult, considering i've gone farther in math than i need to with physics and pre-calc under my belt. D: plus all my classes get shortened to half an hour except for my drawing class which is awesome. :D and then the blood drive is on wednesday, so i get to sit around for about ten minutes with a needle in my arm. yay? XD
i don't really mind needles or anything (i know plenty of people who have issues with needles like i have with heights) so i figured it would be a umm, nice thing to do. but in order to keep myself "clean," i haven't been able to take my allergy medication. which i figured would be fine, because i thought i would be safe until after then, but no... i was DYING today from sniffles and sneezles and itchy eyes and stuffy nose and headaches and all that shit.
ew.

in any matter, it looks as if i will have to make that same trip around sometime later this week to hand in all those applications. so umm. fun?

umm... and that's about it. i really should be studying or doing something constructive with my time... like that physics homework. or maybe a shower. that might help get at that invisible pollen that is sticking to my clothes and hair and whatever and make my itchy eyes go away. T^T

i am so behind...

Classical @ 12:53 am CST

-explodes into many pieces-
okay, so i have bloody BLISTERS on the back of my fingers. layers of band-aids is not an attractive look.

yeah.
i have been obsessively working on hats this weekend. i decided that i really want to get this done and over with this weekend so i don't have to worry about it... and it would really suck to run this up to the last minute, like i had kinda originally planned.
but i'm tired and my back hurts and my fingers are...blistery and i am still insanely behind in life.

i haven't studied for my ap human geography exam. AT ALL. zip, nada, none. and it's next week. that's kinda why i wanted to finish all this hat stuff this weekend so i wouldn't be tempted to work on it during the week, because i am going to STUDY MY BRAINS OUT this week and weekend. unfortunately, i also have to work with ap physics junk to because my teachers was like, "lawls! you're going to have to take a practice exam and it COUNTS!"
yeah, so thanks for being so considerate of the people who are busy enough as it is, señor lund. >_< though, that may be slightly easier to manage (god, i hope so) because i've been working with physics since november now, whereas i haven't seen my geography book since janurary.

sorry friends, i will probably be unable to do anything social for the next two weekends. but after that, man, i will be ready to do ANYTHING. i will be so sick of studying and working and thinking that i'll be like, "drop this shit; let's go." _D_
sigh. though i really really really REALLY want to at least pop in on microcon next weekend, it's not looking good right now. i will have to e-mail rana and kathy and see if they are going, because only seeing those guys would make that trip really worth it right now. otherwise, i might just have to wait until fallcon, i guess...

and i totally just realized that this week is the last week of april and i only have one partically completed job application filled out. i really need to get on that if i want to get a job somewhere this summer, let alone in a place i want to work in... at least i have a long "back-up list" built up if i can't get a job at an art supply store (my dream D:).

fuck. i haven't even THOUGHT about artwork... i am so utterly behind on the three...four commissions i have to get done. but, y'know what, they're really just going to have to wait. i haven't been able to draw anything for myself outside of incomplete doodles as of late. it's getting worse that i'm so stressed for time right now...
well, i hate using my open drawing time in class for commissions, but it looks like it's unavoidable. and i'm in a slump, anyway, so... for those of you who have commissioned me (not like most of you read this, anyway), i will be working on them this week and maybe into the next. but very slowly.
then i need to get back to working on "portfolio-quality" pieces. and some more observational drawings. i daresay i'm actually learning a lot with this one charcoal still life i'm doing right now. so i guess that's one good thing in the sea of all the bad.

in any matter, it is one in the morning right now. i am sleepy and rather sore from bending over fabric all day, and it hurts me even more to know i will be going back at it tomorrow for the final nine hats. but then it will be done and i'll have something accomplished, at least.
but pumping myself with caffiene for the time being and getting more crap done sounds a little more attractive than going to sleep. so i might just have to live with being tired, because i have that charcoal thing to finish for drawing class because i was on vacation when the class did them.
and i kinda want to stay up to watch the replay of cowboy bebop for the evening, mostly because i can.

blah.
-picks up exploded pieces and lost brain cells, gets back to work- =_=

game love!

Classical @ 07:14 pm CST

askflhasklfhaf PSYCHONAUTS IS THE BEST GAME. EVAR.
ranks up there next to katamari damacy as my favorite game. but but, holy damn, i am in love with not only the storyline (which, while it is typical, it has an incredibly awesome twist to it) and the gameplay, but i adore the characters (nein and boyd and fred = LOVE) and the cool style the animators have. also has incredibly smooth graphics and animation. they actually look alive when they are walking... not stiff and jerky like, say, final fantasy characters often do.

i mean... i haven't loved characters like this since ever. XD i am also in the process of playing final fantasy X (among others). the gameplay is good and i like the way battles work in that game, but damnit! i hate the characters (well, except lulu, who is cool). tidus is annoying as hell, and that's a problem when the main character makes you want to smash the tele.

damn. i actually want to draw fanarts. do you know how out of character that is for me? ;n;

[/gameage drool/rant]

yeah umm... so that totally absorbed my weekend, besides the time i spent making hats. so i should go attempt physics homework before i get distracted again. XD;

pricing suggestions, plzkthx!

Classical @ 05:08 pm CST

so i've made some hats!

i spent friday mostly experimenting with the sewing machine and working with the fabric and pattern i've made up for these things. though "experiment" is a nice way to say "failure." i started with the cat-eared hats--i made two of them, one of which had too small of ears that were set way too low, and the other that i managed to sew on one of the ears backwards. twice. XD

but i finally started producing some good ones and i've been on a roll since. :D

i'm producing them in somewhere between half an hour and forty-five minutes each, so i'm doing good with that. and because i'm keeping them really simple, i can sell them for prices that people will -hopefully- buy. any more materials that go on these hats are going to drive up the price. a lot. i spent $70 on supplies just yesterday, and some of the fleece is coming from my old stock that i spent previous monies on.

so. knowing that, and knowing that half of these profits are going to charity, what would be a good price to price these things? thirty hats in total, which i want to all sell for the same price. i need to at least make up for the money i spent on the supplies... but making a wee profit would be nice, too.
i'm thinking... maybe $10 to $12? maybe?
i guess... even if i priced them at $10, i could make an $80 profit off these things. but that's only if i sell all of them, which i dunno would even happen in the end.

weeee~ -excited- can't wait for this sale. it's lots of fun making these things... though it is work.
i gotta take a break from them now for the week, though. need to work on commissions that umm, i haven't started at all. XD;;; but oh well. i'm ahead on my quota for the week already, so i should be in good shape.

hats!

Classical @ 04:50 pm CST

all right, so there's this arts 'n' crafts sale thing that the art club and enviromental club do every year together, cleverly named "art for earth." we sell stuff, have enviromental organizations come in and talk, and half our profits go to saving the enviroment. whoo!
and i want to actually sell something this year. no, not prints, because those sell about as fast as snails. people demand neat, nifty things...
...so i'm going to sell fleece hats.

i think i will be making about thirty of them or so, three of a design a piece, for this event. and that's may 20. about five weeks, because i won't be able to start them until after this weekend. that's with school and schoolwork and ap tests and portfolio work and that little thing called a 'social life.'
think i can do this? i sure hope so.

i gotta figure out what kind of funding i'm going to need to gather for this, though. it seems that my tax returns i got a couple of days back ($110!) are all going to go to buying fleece, felt, and thread. and it may also have to pay for a sewing machine if i can't get the one my mother has up and working. but i don't think that'll quite cover it, so i guess that involves me working with my parents on that... hopefully, though, i can make enough money to not only cover the cost of materials, but also make a wee profit. plus still be able to give half of my profits to charity. but i'm going to be out a lot of money from now until then. >_>
so, with that, i gotta figure out how i'm going to price these suckers, too.

i guess when i start actually producing them, i could slap up some pictures here and on other various places and get some feedback from you guys, whoever you are. it depends on how much cloth and supplies these things end up using and how much said supplies costed, as well.

man, i'm going to have to go fishing for bulk discounts. i am going to be bringing home a lot of fabric from jo-ann this weekend...

[/babbling] this'll be a toll on my freetime, methinks. but if i can get a sewing machine working, producing six hats a week will probably be no problem at all.

...now to figure out what exactly to make! XD i already know i'm going to make a cat-eared hat and quite possibly a long rabbit-eared hat (which will also be more expensive, but yes).
any suggestions? :B

vacation!

Classical @ 06:12 pm CST

wheee!
so i'm typing from balmy florida~ 'tis my last night here; i fly back tomorrow afternoon.
haha, amazingly enough, my grandmother has a computer that isn't totally bogged down with spyware. but i think that's only because my mother cleaned it up a couple of weeks ago before i got here. XD

haven't done too much outside of going to the beach, a bit of shopping, and going to nice restaurants. but it's all right, because it's been mildly restful and relaxing. plus i have an assload of sand in my ears and a weird-ass sunburn on the badck of my arm, so i've got the whole vacationing experience under my belt as it is, haha.

i also realized it's incredibly difficult to draw while you on the beach without your paper blowing away or giving yourself a weird tan. so i haven't done much of what i was supposed to do over this vacation with these...three commissions to do, one of which is a three-page comic. oops. i will be attempting to do some stuff this evening, but i don't think i'll get too far. which is...no good, because i'm going to be incredibly behind when i get back to school on tuesday.
my teachers gave me all this shit to do in my books and stuff. they were all, "be sure to take these on your trip, lols!" and i thought to myself, "yeah, umm... no." my suitcase was 44 lbs (maximum is 50 lbs!) when i left. there was no way in hell i was carting those things around with me. XD

but i guess that leaves me really behind when i get back. i will be back around...six tomorrow, hopefully, so i'm going to be reading up on resistors and vectors and doing laundry all frantically. i won't even get to the actual work, probably... and i still won't be able to touch those commissions, which are really behind as it is. >_>
i reeeeally don't want to waste more of my time at school in my art classes working on commissions, but it might be unavoidable. when i get back, i was hoping to start a three-paneled painting and my actual comic (which i still haven't thumbnailed yet, either), but...yeah...

blah. vacations are do nice sometimes, but i get back and it's hell. XD all a distraction from reality, it is...
with the fact that i'm missing monday, it's a three-day week next week, with options on wednesday, so with my luck, i won't have too much new work. and then i can get caught up over the long weekend.
...i hope. D:

foiled again!

Classical @ 01:46 pm CST

oh shit, man.
i woke up insanely late today, due to the fact that i stayed up late last night and the night before (like always, really), but i didn't sleep in yesterday. so i guess my body decided to catch up on sleep last night...

in any matter. i woke up, looked at the clock, and winced, because it was past noon. and i have stuff to get done today.
but then i sit down at my computer and i sat there for a bit, staring at the time on it and wondering if it had hiccuped or something. the clock was an hour fast.

ahaha, funny, daylight savings time. very funny.
but april fool's was yesterday.

D; there goes another whole hour i thought i had.


but umm, in other news... not like anyone who reads this thing hasn't already seen this on my deviantART, but i'm trying to wrangle in some commission work before i go on vacation. as unlikely as it sounds, i guess i can hope, can't i? D:
read the extended entry for more!