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Classical @ 09:12 pm CST

FTWKIKKOMAN. <3
yeah umm... i don't know. but it is amusing. XD


umm... not much to say otherwise, really.
six days of school left. whoo and yay. we're doing a whole lot of nothing in all my classes right now. allows me to spend a majority of them doodling, doing sudoku, and writing letters to various friends. :B it feels like such a huge waste of time, though... i could be at home and doing real artwork and stuff instead of listening to my teachers rehash everyhting we've learned in the semester that i already know.
i have two "finals-that-aren't-really-finals" left. the precalculus one only covers the stuff we learned this quarter, and the physics only covers fluid dynamics, special relativity, and nuclear reactions. all of which isn't a lot and won't be difficult at all.
if my grade didn't matter, i would totally just skip the rest of school here. _D_

i am also still unemployed at the moment. the guy still hasn't "made up his mind" at the store, so i don't know if i'm hired or not. it's one of my last choices, but damnit... no one else called me back. so it's my only hope for a job this summer, or i'm stuck. unless i want to do the dreaded food service again...which i do NOT. D;
siiiiigh. if all else fails...maybe i'll pick up applications at like, rainbow foods and office max. because i know those stores are actually hiring. it's still air-conditioned and retail work, so it's not much different than the other places i applied for.

blargh.
on a lighter note... this makes me happy. ourbaby makes me happy. <3

i owe her a lot of artwork for this and another fabulous thing she drew for meeeee. XD <33 but i gotta finish this one last really-overdue commission first... which requires me drawing three comic pages. D| at least i have actually started sketching the final pages now.

blarghkabibble.

Classical @ 07:51 pm CST

okay, so...weekend.
i had fun with my friends at my cabin, but i was so damn grouchy for most of it, because all i wanted to do for most of the time was sit in front of a fan. it was TOO DAMN HOT. i have issues with hot weather, obviously... i am a person that prefers the cold.
and being stuck inside of a house with many other people in it and no AC and having allergies bombard you until you're miserable doesn't make it any better, either.

but oh well.
we ended up seeing two movies this weekend, because there's not a lot you can do in that kind of heat. saw x-men 3 and the davinci code.

x-men 3 made me cry. not happy tears, mind you.
i was just...heartbroken at how badly the new director ruined this movie. no amount of cool special effects could make up for the jaggedy plot line and the two things that ruin a movie (random sex scenes and bringing back characters from the dead). sighsighsigh. it made me so sad. i loved the two first movies to pieces and i was so happy that the second movie was so good.
however, since this movie hinted at yet another sequel, i don't think i will be going to that, oh no. the ending was ridiculous, by the way... peaceful, calm moment of observation then BAM! credits.

umm... the davinci code was okay. because everyone keeps freaking asking--no, i have not read the book. i wouldn't see this movie again, even if it was for free, though.
i guess i'm the only one who finds mystery-type movies mildly entertaining, because no one else i went to the movie with liked it. the characters were...bad, though. you really don't get a sense of morality and personality when they keep changing sides. there was also a lack of explanation and clarity to explain some things and relationships that were automatically assumed valid in the film, but i guess you can't do everything.
maybe it helped that i didn't read the book beforehand... but even then, i go into movies that are based off books i have read with an open mind, knowing that no matter how good the writers and actors and directors are, the movie will never be the same as the book, because books are meant to be enjoyed in a readable format.

blah. it also didn't help that the movie theatre was old and stuffy, and then there was this obnoxious old jackass behind us that decided to answer his GODDAMN CELL PHONE in the middle of the movie.

and i have about a billion mosquito bites. -wiggleitch-

in all, it was fun. i've had better times with my friends, i think, when i'm not being such a ms. whiny-pants. but it was a good way to issue my cabin off on its madien voyage to another family. it's gone on the 26th of june to another owner, so i don't think i'll personally be able to get up there again before then (especially if i have a job), let alone with my friends.

so now! i am sleepy. i spent my whole afternoon playing we <3 katamari though. yes, it finally came. <33
time to do laundry and unpack and get ready for the second-to-last-week of school and then sleep maybe.

whoohats.

Classical @ 12:58 pm CST

jeez, i hope these places start calling me tomorrow about work. i put that i could work after may 20th on all my applications, so i guess it's not fair to get all worried about it yet because they usually don't start calling until then... but man, i am anxious to know if i'm going to get one of these jobs.
i've gotten turned down by two becuase they weren't hiring, and i still don't know if a third is going to go through or not... if i somehow manage to strike out on all seven, my karma must be really bad. _D_

but umm... in other news, i made $50 yesterday.
the hat sale at my high school went pretty well, considering it was my first and we didn't get a ton of traffic through there, really. i ended up selling $100 worth hats, so i made a dent in that amount we're sending to the enviromental organization. i hope.

however, i still have several left over, so now i'm stuck relying on the intarwebs to get them sold. i like them all, but i will never be able to wear them no matter how much i try... so they have to go.
please visit this site for what's in stock and how to order. it would make me a happy muffin to get these off my hands, so everyone wins.

now to get shop set up on the 'net. i think i need to work on more patterns and get better with my un1337 sewing skillz first, though.
to those who bought my hats (friends, mostly, becuase they're the only ones who even read this XD): lemme use your head for modeling! i'm working on setting up a website which will have hats 'n' more for sale, so having a wee gallery with fun photos of people actually wearing the hats generally helps the sales.

however, my time has to go to commission work i am so backed up on right now. someone randomly e-mailed me this morning about a commission, though... i feel loved! <3 hopefully i can catch up here in the next few weeks or so... still have a two-page comic to draw for someone. >n>;

+26 tech!

Classical @ 07:39 pm CST

i am one productive little--ARRRGH, damnit, i just realized forgot to make more job phone calls today. i got totally distracted with making the few last things i wanted to put together for the sale on saturday.
blah. i will just call tomorrow.

...umm, i am a muffin?
in any case, i am so ready for this sale! i finished the book with all my hats in it and all the other little signs i need to have up. and everything is packed up packed up now. i am ready to pwn that sale, yes i am.

oh. and these pants that i ordered TWO MONTHS AGO finally came in the mail today. they look nice and fit perfectly. so they'd better be worth it.

$6.15?!

Classical @ 05:00 pm CST

so, meh.
the interview at gamestop went well, but i just don't think i'll take the job if they decide to hire me.

i can only work part-time at minimum wage to begin with here. uber suck when i was asking for full-time and at LEAST $7 an hour, prefferably $8. i seriously cannot afford to pay for the gas that it will take for me to go back and forth to these jobs because they are so far AND pay for the trips and CONvergence this summer AND afford to work on my portfolio AND y'know...college.
they are trying to entice me with "benefits"... like discounts not only there but at other stores, "checkouts" for a few days so i can sample games (and get to know them), lots of information on stuff before it even comes out, and the occasional visit from people who work in the industry. and they said that those are only the starting levels--the better i work, the more hours i get and the more opportunities i get for a raise.
but i only have three months here. only if i really loved this job would i consider keeping it into the school year in order to gain those added hours and wage.

those things would probably make up for the low wage and crap hours if i was more involved in the video game industry. especially if i wanted to, say, make a career in the game industry, that would be a great start.
but unfortunately, i don't. and if i want to go where i plan on going, i have to actually get a job here that freaking pays me more so i can afford to go to college.

blah. am i just not worth more than minimum wage or something? ;n;
i realized that i probably won't be able to start off with much better anywhere else, either... considering full-time work is hard to get and better pay for retail is hard to come across, too.
but damnit! i have priorities! i need the monies! and i personally think i am worth at least a little more than the bottom line...

people tell me i have smarts and talent, though apparently they're only worth $6.15 an hour. >_>

jobs!

Classical @ 05:23 pm CST

yaaaaaaay i got my first callback. :D
gamestop called me back today while i was in school. i had to call THREE TIMES just to get the guy that called D| but i've got an interview set for tomorrow. so we'll see how that goes.
but that usually means that i have a job because they called me back in the first place. XD

this job isn't high on my list, mostly because i don't feel totally qualified for the job. compared to a lot of other nerds i know, i know very very very little about video games. XD but i feel that working here will allow me to learn and let my addiction progress. :D
since i just got a real console a few months back (ps2), i've actually found good games. outside of that, i have all my old-school consoles and some gameboys, a gamecube (which has like...zelda, and that's it), and a crappy-ass computer that refuses to run word documents sometimes, let alone complex video games (or photoshop, for that matter D:).

so it's up there... i suppose it depends on the hours i can get and the monies i can earn. if it offers me a lot compared to my other top choices, blick art supplies and the two craft stores, then i would probably take up this one. but i have to wait for a call from the blick stores and michael's, and call jo-ann's later this week.
i also have to call shinder's later this week and probably sit on hold forever at their corporate office before i can find out if i can get that job, too. |D

i think my list of desires is like this: 1) qualifications 2) payment 3) hours. if a low-1 job has high 2 and 3, then that could easily convince me to do a job i don't have much experience in verses one i do have a lot of experience with, only with lower hours and less pay. i neeeeeed a good-paying job this summer, and i wanna work full-time, or it just won't be worth it because these places are far away. working at the bakery part-time last year wasn't much of an issue because it was close.
but damn... i demand more of a paycheck this time. 6.50 an hour SUCKS. D: i also need the monies to pay for CONvergence this year, plus a trip to new york and chicago. plus i'll be dropping tons of money on art supplies to keep building my portfolio... fabric and sewing supplies to hopefully start a wee internet business this summer... plus the occasional video game. |D i'm debating whether or not to pick up an xbox 360 now.

hopefully i can actually invest some money in college funds. even if it's just a bit, it'll help. there was no way in HELL i could've afforded to do that last year with the shitty pay i got, so pay is definitely high on my list of concerns this time.
i can afford to be a little more picky this year, too. i applied for seven different jobs and i'm older, whereas last year i only had applied for that one and i was hardly of legal working age. XD

...so yeah!
life's good.

now to get back to work on my hat stuffs. i just finished packing everything up... into two really huge boxes, a large plastic bag, plus my sewing machine.
i'll have to drag all that to the sale on saturday. at least it's not far. D:
i also have to make a price book, figure out commissions, and business cards... plus maybe some care tip sheets so people don't get stupid and try to machine wash their hats. D|

-runs off-

yeah.

Classical @ 11:53 pm CST

ooooh, emo.
kinda scary. i rarely have these moments. but there's a couple of things that have been on my mind a lot... and i ust really need to get them out. even if no one's listening.

crazy world.

Classical @ 09:26 pm CST

so i logged onto deviantART yesterday, and i found that someone new was watching me.
and i recognized the name. i sat there and thought for a few minutes, trying to figure out where i had seen it before... but when i went to their page, i totally remembered who it was.

one of my best roleplaying friends from waaaaaaaay back in the day when i actually used to play on furcadia... i think it must've been three years since i've talked to the guy. three whole years, man.

and it's made me realize...time sure flies.
it feels like these whole years that have gone by are just little blips in my life. they seem like such small lengths of time, and so far away. i feel so disconnected with them...
my mind is totally flying back to my roleplaying days, all that fun i had there, all those friends i made... and how i only talk to one, occasionally two of those friends now, because so much time has passed.

just saying "three whole years" doesn't really leave much of an inpact on me alone. i mean, it's just numbers, and math class has taught me that three isn't a huge number.
but i realize how much has gone by since then, how much has changed, and where i am at the moment...
and time feels infinite.

crazy.

ERRRRR.

Classical @ 05:03 pm CST

annnnnnd a mighty FUCK YOU to physics.
did that exam today. didn't do so well on it. but umm... it could've been a lot worse, i guess.

but at least i'm freaking DONE with it now, and the rest of my school year is smooth sailing, because we will be doing little of anything in my physics class now. lots of field trips, apparently. XD

i plan on doing a whole lot of nothing tonight. just because i can for the first time in three or so weeks.

...
and that is all.

movies!

Classical @ 12:44 am CST

since i have been sick as hell here, i decided that i wouldn't try to do anything useful, because i knew nothing useful would get done.
so i caught up on some movies. :D

my sister rented aeon flux the other night, so we watched that.
sorely disappointed. as i experienced with underworld 2, one of the sure-fire ways to destroy a film is a random sex scene that doesn't fit with the plot line (or the characters). especially when it is with the established enemy at that point in the film, so you end up leaving the viewers thinking, "...wtf?"
that and several other events of the film left me wondering exactly who the hell the main character was supposed to be. her relationships with other characters in the film were totally ambiguous, so i really couldn't get a feeling about who she was or what she really stood for. she was kinda robotic in that sense...

so umm, yeah. it was rather difficult to keep up with sometimes, but i still ended up predicting the ending quite well. and there's no fun in that, is there?

we then moved onto batman begins... which was yum. <3
another comic-to-film gem that stayed intact during the transfer. lovely and made me happy. ...except for the end, where we got a couple glorious, painfully obvious shots of katie holmes's freaking NIPPLE PIERCINGS. either that, or she has four nipples. DDD: who in the costume department forgot to cover that up, man?!
waaah, and i could not remember who the hell morgan freeman was until i watched the credits... i was sitting there the whole time like, "WHO IS THAT GUY??!! I KNOW HIM!!" yeah, it bugged me.

and yes. movies have happened, so i think i'm going to go sleep now and hope my sicky germs are out of my system when i get up, because i really actually have to do stuff this weekend. D:

whooyay.

Classical @ 05:43 pm CST

so.
two days and one evening left here to study for that physics exam. i just spent two hours after school learning about alpha and beta particles, thermodynamics, and a little bit of chemistry. because i didn't take ANY of the suggested or required prerequistes for that class (pre-calculus and ap chemistry). heh.

and i think i really got it. i was whipping through those practice questions (which are old exam questions, mind you). i think it was all the graphs... a lot of it involved happy diagrams and stuff. i like that. i'm a big visual learner.

hey, and this is coupled with me being incredibly sick right now. XD i had this sore throat all day yeserday, which i thought was just a part of my allergies, but i woke up this morning with half a fever and those shitty aches you get all over whenever you're really sick.
so my school day was only an hour and a half, because--you guessed it--i only went in for physics. [/LAME]

i think once i am feeling better (which i hope is tomorrow), i will be able to study well and maybe get something with this exam. i am a lot more relieved that i got nuclear physics and thermodynamics and fluid dynamics explained to me by my teacher, rather than trying to read this over-complicated book we have. i still have yet to figure out what the fuck special relativity is all about, but they took out a lot of that on the exam, anyway, in favor of more thermodynamics. so i may just not bother with that.

IN ALL, i think i will be ready. as long as i get uhh... less sick here soon.

new life, kthx.

Classical @ 03:31 pm CST

okay, mock-ap physics exam today made me want to vomit on my paper, then cry and hide under a rock.
a really heavy rock.

it was really scary. i didn't know half of the stuff.
i think a week of intensive studying may help combat this lapse of knowledge in my brain, but there's problems with that: 1) physics is kinda something you can't just read and know; you have to do it and 2) i just don't fucking feel like studying anymore.

well.
i think studying may get put off for most of tonight in favor of drawing and playing katamari damacy.

...yeah, when my biggest concerns in life are an exam and playing video games, i think i really need to get a new life.

yeah.

Classical @ 08:40 pm CST

-displays GENIUS proudly-
yeah. totally pwned that geography exam. i guess i best not brag about it too much, because then it seems that some godly power always knocks my score down several points for boasting, but... man... that was easy.

i give thanks to my mad-crazy studying skills. totally paid off, because this time i knew the answers to all the essay questions! (last ap exam, i didn't know what one was and had to somehow bullshit the whole thing and hope i was right.)

this practice ap physics exam i have to take tomorrow isn't looking too great, though. i haven't had any time to studyyyy... i will be doing that this week, but until then... yeah, umm, i'm struggling.
which sucks, because this actually goes on my grade. grrr. damn you, mr. lund.